Here's some background on the title.
I lost 21 lb pre band,7lb in the first week banded and then 6lb in the next week. Since then the scales have gone up and down over the same 5lb. I have lost nothing for 5 weeks! And I have had a fill. No weight loss since the fill. I know its not realistic to continue losing at that weight but come on, nothing for 5 weeks! The week after the fill I could only manage liquids hense the low calories for the week. The next bit is boring but I need to write it (sorry in advance)
LAST 5 WEEKS CALORIES
Week one total 7090
Week two total 6800
Week three total 4140 Fill this week so liquids only
Week four total 5510
Week five total 4096 still 3 days to go.
I have also increased my exercise so I am really fed up that the weight is not coming off. It's not like I only have a few pounds to lose. I didn't expect to stall so early on. I have decided along with the support of DH that we will give it another two weeks before going back to the dietitian.
But the main reason for this post's title is my decision not to weigh myself everyday. I know this is not a big deal to most people but it's huge for me. I have always weighed myself everyday even when I was overeating. It's like not brushing your teeth. I even used to weigh myself in the night if I got up to pee!
I have gone cold turkey for two days now and it's a real achievement for me.
We have agreed to continue the food log, exercise at least 5 times a week and weigh in as a family every Sunday using the Wii fit. The first weigh in is this Sunday.
I am desperately trying not to let the fact I am not losing weight rule my life but I am feeling really nervous that the band will not work for me. (my worst nightmare).
Also this week DH and I went for a walk. We walked for an hour at a really good pace. I was enjoying this walk until someone went past in a car and shouted "fat slag"! I was so embarrassed. I think it would have upset me if I was on my own but because DH was there I felt embarrassed. He was really angry but that just made me feel worse. If I had been on my own I would have had my headphones in so would not have heard them. This made me think "does this happen often and I just don't hear it?". I know it was just some idiot but coupled with the fact I have my period and I am not losing weight I just felt awful.
Oh and yesterday my boss asked me to stay on at work until the end of July (I am being let go at the end of June) but he didnt ask DH (we work together). So DH felt like crap and I was torn on what to do. I havent got another job to go to yet so another months pay would be good.
I am writing this post and then going to spend my morning off reading the posts of the week for some inspiration.
I would love to hear from anyone who is well past this stage if you can tell me its normal, it will get better, anything positive really. I know once I have caught up with you all I will feel re energised and raring to go so thanks for all your support. Can't wait for BYOC this week x
5 days ago