Wednesday, 31 March 2010

Goodbye Kitchen

I spent the whole day crafting yesterday! Which means all my stuff comes out of the cupboard and takes over the kitchen. I was a bit put out when I had to stop and make dinner at 5pm.

I had some cards to make which had been requested by friends so I was on a mission and I was very pleased with the result even if it was not my usual style.

The sun is shining today, yippee! So I will venture outside for a walk and maybe some more crafting this afternoon. Just in case you could'nt tell I am trying to be cheerful as I got on the scales this morning and they showed a 2lb gain. I am a bit shell shocked really. I have increased my calorie intake by adding slim fast shakes but Im still only up to 750cals a day.

This is stupid. It is making me scared to consume anything. I am not sure if I should continue with the shakes or go back to just eating WW soup & yogurt. I cant see myself living like this long term. I am so looking forward to eating normal food and having a steady weight loss (if that ever happens).

Anyway back to being cheerful. :-)

Tuesday, 30 March 2010

8 Days in

Well its day eight, I wonder how long I will count the days he he.
I went to the surgery yesterday to have my stitches removed ( they were only steri strips) and they said they were all doing fine but that they would put a new lot on "just to be on the safe side". Thats good but now I have another week before I can get them wet so no long soak in the bath for me :-( But they do look a lot cleaner.

I am now able to drink/eat a lot bigger quantities than last week. Last week I could only manage half a cup of tea (5oz) but I just drank a slim fast shake which is 250ml with no trouble. I am now panicking that I am consuming too much. I was having about 500cals a day but wanted to increase it to 1000cals just so I would'nt put on weight as soon as I went to mushies. Is that too much? Where do I find out? My diet sheet from the hospital just says what you can eat not how much you should eat. This is becoming an obsession.

It has been raining here for two days and I hate the rain. I am longing for some sunshine so I can go on longer walks maybe in the park. But we are forecast worse weather to come. :-(

I had a fun afternoon yesterday going through my wardrobe and throwing out all the big clothes that were already hanging off me. I have lost weight in the past so I have a wide range of sizes to choose from, like most yo yo dieters. But some of the smaller sizes are too dated to ever wear again. My daughter was having a good laugh at some of them. It did make me wonder though what will happen when I have out shrunk even the smallest sizes, some of those clothes have been with me for years lol.

How good will it be to go and buy new small stuff?????

Friday, 26 March 2010

Day 5

Hi everyone,Its day five and I am feeling much better. Not very sore, very little gas pain (only at night really) and ready to get outside. I am stir crazy.

I am also a little hungry but trying to ignore it. Not starving but just a rumbling tum. Just a short entry today to let you know I think the blues was a short term thing resulting from all the meds leaving my body and there is light on the other side. The sun is shinning and although I cant sleep on my side yet its all good. Plus the scales said I have lost 5lb this week!

Hope you are all well and on the road to recovery. Take care

Thursday, 25 March 2010

day 3 blues

Well Im 3 days post op and I think all the good meds must have all worn off because I feel very low and sorry for myself today.

I am usually a very cheerful person but Im bored feeling sore and being scared to do anything in case I dislodge the band or knock my stitches. I turned over in bed and my stitches have bled again.

I cant drink enough without getting a tight pain accross my chest and I want a shower!Boo Hoo I sound pathetic.I am not going to write anymore until I can say something good. Dont want to bring eveyone down.Bye for now, Im off for a wallow.

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

Banded by the Light.

Well its done and Im home. I came home at 5pm not 11am but that was just delays with my meds really. I had to be awake on the operating table while they prep'ed me which was a bit worrying but it wasnt long before I drifted off. I felt fantastic straight after but once the meds wore off I was just a bit sore.

I have to say I am pleasantly surprised how well I feel. I have a bit of gas pain but nothing unbearable and its a bit sore especially when I bend down but I am not taking any pain relief so its all good.
I am not hungry, hope that carries on ha ha.

The two worst things are the feeling of wanting to cough but being scared to and having to sleep on my back because as soon as I drift of I turn over then wake myself up so not much sleep so far.

But on the whole yippee! I cant believe Ive made it to the other side. I have set myself some mini goals but for now I am just concentrating on getting better.

Sunday, 21 March 2010

One More Sleep

Twas the night before banding,

My bag is packed and I am ready for my early start tomorrow morning. I have to be at the hospital for 7am and I'm told I will be ready to go home by 11am.

I am not nervous at all, just excited. It's strange looking forward to surgery.

I will hopefully be able to update my blog tomorrow afternoon but maybe I'll be sleeping The only thing I am thinking about is the fact that they will see me naked. I'm sure they have seen it all but it doesn't stop me fretting. Silly I know.

Anyway see you all on the other side.

Saturday, 6 March 2010

New Post

Today was a tough day. I went to Covent Garden in London with Marcus and my two daughters. We were shopping for running shoes. Marcus is running the London Marathon at the end of April.

Covent Garden is full of food!!! People were eating everywhere. The smells were fantastic. I am on day two of a milk only diet Then Marcus had a cheese and bacon pasty which smelled like heaven, I had a latte.

Later we ended up in the Battersea Pie shop where Marcus had a beef pie and No1 daughter had steak and ale pie and mashed potatoes. No 2 daughter had paella. I had another latte.

I have to get through days like this as they are not going to stop eating just because I have but boy it was hard. I am glad to be home "safe" away from temptation.I miss food though.

Will that ever go away????

Thursday, 4 March 2010

Pre op appointment

Ok so it was a bit of an anti climax but still good.I had blood pressure, weight, and MRSA tests done by a lovely nurse called Lorna. She really made me feel comfortable.

The I had an ECG and some blood tests. And I was home in an hour! No photos, phew. No dietician, no talk about surgery.

I have to say once I saw the surgeon last August it has pretty quick and to the point. No great discussions. I was expecting lots of information and guidence. Thank heavens for LapBandTalk and everyones willingness to share. Without it I think I would have been totally unprepared.

I have followed the restricted food diet for 4 days and gained 1.5 lb. I cant dwell on that point because I feel like giving up. I have, hand on heart not eaten anything that wasnt weighed and on the list so how I gained weight I dont know. But I am now switching to the milk only diet for the next 18 days. That has surely got to work?????

I am under no illusion that it will be easy but now I have had the pre op I feel like its the final countdown and I have to make the effort.

I am so looking forward to life with the band.

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

Pre Op tomorrow!

Well it's finally happening, I have my pre op appointment tomorrow and my band date is the 22nd of March.

I think I have to have some blood tests, an ECG and chat about the pre op diet. Then they take photos not looking forward to that!

I started the pre op diet on Monday (3 days early) just so I could get used to it and ask any questions on the day.

This countdown is so exciting
I can't wait to start posting my post op blog! I am so positive about it all.
Anyway I will let you know how tomorrow goes and hopefully it will help any Uk banders see what sort of stuff you have to do.