I'm not sure if I should share my thoughts for today because like some of you I really just want to be liked but I suppose the whole point of this thing is to be honest whatever the outcome.
I have been really grumpy with everyone lately and at first thought it was PMS but that came and went and I was still snappy. Then I got to thinking am I just turning into a snappy, grumpy person? Was I happy to accept the quiet life before because I could turn to food to calm my temper or silence my voice of protest? Does this mean that I will be thin and miserable?
Also I have followed lots of people through their journey's and when I see their thin pictures they dont look like they were ever overweight but I cannot imagine a thin me. I just cant picture it at all. Is that normal? I thought you were surposed to get more confident as the weight came off but I dont feel that way yet. I have only lost 32lb so maybe its a bit soon to tell?
I love reading everyone's blogs and that's the one thing that keeps me going but I am feeling a little out of the loop. I havent been doing this long but maybe as my daughter pointed out "its just that other people are more interesting than you". Honestly I dont think she was being mean just trying to help.
Anyway I hope that this is just another one of those weird emotional roller coasters that the lap band seems to have me on and that the ride will be over soon and I can get on a jolly merry go round because this sucks.
Everyone is doing so well and being so positive that I hate to whinge but there it is. I'm off to feel sorry for myself for a bit.
Love you all x
5 days ago